As much as I couldn’t wait for BlogHer ’11 to get here, my heart was dreading it SO much. I knew that once it was over, so would my life in California. Our move has always been based on the week after BlogHer and much to the heartbreak, it ended; and so will my California livin’.
The call came, the movers will be here next week, the truck will be loaded up; and so will the pieces of my broken heart 🙁
Am I being a little dramatic? I don’t care, quite frankly; right now it’s all I can think about. Not the fun times we will have on our once in a lifetime cross country road trip, not, the amazing pictures I will be able to take with the gorgeous camera husb bought me, not the priceless memories we will forever have because of this; just sitting here on my couch thinking about how sad I am. How sad I am to leave my home, not this house we are renting, but my HOME… California. Who has been my home ALL MY LIFE!
I know that once we hit the road my tears will roll, but so will my excitement. I am just going through the natural AND expected fears of leaving my home. This is the first time I will move away from home, even after 14 years in the Military, 6 deployments, I always managed to stay behind with the Family. Now my record of 35 years will be broken, for how long will be in NY? How will I adjust? How much fun will my kids have with all of the family there? The impending “disagreements” with my MIL’s heavy set opinions, are and have always been something that will be there. But what will I do when my need for my California sunshine is eating away at me? How will I “make do” with the east coast beaches, when in my heart of hearts I only want to go back to my beautiful San Diego beaches?
In the end, I know I will have no choice but to deal with it. To settle down, buckle up and enjoy the ride; after all…
That’s what life is right? a fun and wild roller coaster to many of us 😉
either way I am sure you will hear/read about it 😉